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I thought compiling a list of some o my obsessions over the years might be helpful because whenever I was in therapy, the psychologists that I spoke to didn't really seem to get it. It is very interesting that I did not even get ROCD symptoms (or ones that I recognised as such) until I was 29 after the ending of a very traumatic and abusive relationship. From then on I would have these thoughts and hideous accompanying feelings towards the members of the opposite sex and it was like living in a nightmare as I could not stop them. So here goes, a few that spring off the top of my head. I can't stop thinking she looks like a frog and it really upsets me.  Her legs are too short, it makes me feel weird. Her eyes are too big, they scare me as they remind me of a big baby doll.  Her eyes are blue, I don't want to be with someone with blue eyes, why did I get myself into this mess?!(It took me about 4 years to stop obsessing about that one). Her head is too big. Why is her head s...

There is every chance that an extended time with your partner over the Christmas and New Year period will lead to an increase in the severity of your ROCD. I for one always used to dread holidays, summer holidays were even worse. With the break of going to work every day I could just about hold it together, assembling a decent facsimile of  a normal relationship (well at least on the surface). But alas, spending time at the week-ends or on the holidays and my ROCD would flair up big time. The same old thoughts bursting through my brain, the same conclusions, the same behaviours, the same emotional torment about whether to stay or go. I remember a time I decided to go, coming back from a holiday in the sun.  I remember it like it was yesterday even though it was years ago. I had had a terrible holiday on a Greek Island with my girlfriend. My partner was quite a difficult person but I was feeling terrible and trapped the whole time. What made matters worse was the fact that ther...